i’ve decided to take a break from smoking in the mornings, which i’d definitely gotten into the ritual of… and oh boy, do i feel it all.
all the sadness, the fear, the disappointment, the loss…
i’m scared of feeling. i’m scared of the weight of the hard emotions without the levity of joy.
and yet here i am.
Adele’s song “hold on” is a salve to my tired and fearful heart:
Let time be patient
You are still strong
Let pain be gracious
Love will soon come
Just hold, hold on
sending y’all love and strength ❤